Relationship.. relationship..

Relationship.. relationship..
Relationship (情感) is very complicated and blur for me.. Sometime it bring me benefits.. bt sometime my life, my daily activities was lock by it - Relationship.
My daily activities followed to my mood.. And my mood sometime will affect by my relationship v frenz and my gurl frenz.. I was restrict by all my relationship almost a year le..

I want bek to my histories.. Live as MYSELF !!!
I cant be myself after have some new relationship in my new life of study at Batu Pahat..
I cant be myself.. 100% myself anymore.. in tis new life...
I have to care about others and worry about getting hurt by anyone which i only can trust 50% or 80%..
I will feel helpless and lonely when drop into a trap between being myself and full fill my frenz's requirements.. Feel lonelyness after tat..
Sometime, My life have to continue n continue follow the steps of frenzs.. Cant be myself le...
I wanna bek to my histories and be myself..
I wanna be a robot which dun have feelings and repeat the same types of activities everyday..
I dun wan to change bcos of the world have change..
I wanna live as myself in my world..

I wanna.. i wanna... BE MYSELF !!!